Saturday, July 30, 2011

Conversations to Remember

Rob ran in the Warrior Dash today in Kansas City. Apparently, it's a rather difficult 5K obstacle course. But he finished survived and called me on the way home:
R: Do you feel any different?
Me: Different?
R:Yeah. Do you feel any different now?
Me: Than what? How I've felt all day?
R: No. Does it feel any different now that you're married to a REAL warrior?
Me: ha.....ha.....ha (eyes rolling)

He's even got the ridiculous hat and medal to go with it. I'm soooo lucky...or not! ;-) Good job babe! I love you!!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Happy 5th Birthday Robert Allen!

It's hard to believe that it's been 5 years since our little boy was stillborn. It doesn't seem like it's been that long since I held him for the first and last time. So much has happened since then, but even with life moving on, not a day has passed that I haven't thought about him. But now, when I think of him, it's not usually with the raw grief that it used to be. I can think of him and feel happy and grateful that I had even those few months with him inside my womb; That I felt him move and heard his heartbeat. I may not have experienced those things with him after he was born, but that doesn't make them any less precious to me. I wish I'd had even just a few moments with him, alive, after his birth, but that wasn't what Heavenly Father had planned. But I know, that although I didn't get to raise him, or share in those experiences here, there will be a time that I will get to. After we are resurrected I will have my son, I will get to raise him and love him just like every mother dreams of. He may not be here physically but I know his spirit is always near. I am grateful that I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I am so thankful that through his holy priesthood my son is sealed to our family for eternity. Death can not separate us permanently. We may be separated for now, but it is only temporary. After this life, I will have him with me forever, as well as all my other children and my husband. It is hard and I do still miss him so much. There are so many times that I want to just hold him one more time, or kiss him, feel his breath on my cheek or feel his hand grasp my finger. But I will wait and trust in the Lord's plan for him and for us. Until I can have him in my arms, I will entrust him to my Savior's and to those of my family who have gone on before. They will give him all my love, the love that I can't show him...yet. I love you baby boy! You are always in my heart.

Friday, July 8, 2011


Inspired by my wonderful friend and blogger Danna at 3 Pink Cupcakes I've decided to try and participate in a fun blog activity called....InstaFriday! You just post pics taken with your cell phone of everyday moments taken throughout the week.

If you want to participate or just browse, head on over to Life.Rearranged!
life rearranged

On Sunday on the way to Nursery, cousin E. grabbed
Kai's hand and walked with her to class.
Such Cuties!!

Eddie Boo Bear loved dancing with
Robosapien at Grandma's house. He'd cry
whenever it stopped!

Sweet little Kai Kai loves to play mommy
to all her babies.

The biggest and the littlest. Eddie adores his older
brother Sterling and Sterling feels the
same way about his baby brother!

This is (most) of the kiddos from our trip to the
Zoo today. We met up with Danna & my sister-in-law Clara
with all their kids and hung out all morning! We are such great parents!!!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

A cupcake's worth...$1?

At least at this incredible bakery here in town called Billy Vanilly they are! We went on a little outing with Clara and the kids and our friend Danna and her kids. I've...err...I mean, WE have been looking forward to this day for a few weeks now. We all met at Billy Vanilly to buy mini cupcakes for $1 each. They are little but the perfect size for a small reward, snack, or for little hands.

Eddie makes that cupcake look GOOD!!

And just so you know, I didn't leave Sterling out, he happens to be spending the week with his Nana so he missed it...this time at least. I'm SURE we'll go again....VERY SOON!!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Boo Bear's 1 Year Check Up

Boo Bear had his 1 year check up today at the Dr's. We have been so lucky to have the best pediatrician and nurse in the world! So we always look forward to check ups and seeing them. Today was no exception. Emmy didn't come with us but made our nurse a picture of a talking hamburger for me to give to her. After talking with our nurse for awhile we got to see Dr.
  For the most part everything looked great with Eddie. He weighed in at 24lbs. 1oz., was 31in. tall with a head circumference of 19.29in. That puts him in the 82nd percentile for height, the 66th percentile for weight and in the 90th percentile for head circumference. Basically he's tall, average weight with a big head. Hehehehe. Maybe that means he'll be smart??? Or maybe not, but regardless, he's reached all the milestones that he should have by this point, and then some. What can I say, he's advanced! ;-) His ear tubes look great and he's just perfect....except for his feet. See, when he walks or stands they do this:

And THAT is NOT normal, apparently. We've noticed it for awhile now, but I figured I'd just talk to our pediatrician at Eddie's check up since it wasn't an emergency. Turns out Eddie has something called Metatarsus Adductus. It's a foot deformity where the bones in the front half of the foot turn in towards the body. Here's a picture to compare the two:

He has a moderate case of it so, after some discussion between the Dr and I, we decided it would be best for Eddie if he went to see a pediatric orthopedist in KC. There are ways to treat it, but it depends on the age of the child and the severity of it, to decide what, if anything, will be done. So, at some point, I will be making a journey to KC to find out if Boo will have anything done with his feet. This boy just has to do whatever he can to set himself apart from the rest of the crew I guess! But I still adore the boy and, despite his weird feet, will keep him!

Robert Allen