Wednesday, July 30, 2008

First Appointment

Our first doctor's appointment was on Monday. They did all the normal stuff like weight and blood pressure and then we got to the important part...finding baby's heartbeat. It took a minute to find where the little bugger was hiding, but sure enough there it was. It was fast and strong so I'm a little more relaxed. I hate the waiting between appointments though since it's too soon to feel the baby move, there's really no way to tell if something goes wrong at this point. Oh well, I'll try not to worry too much! Another positive is that my morning sickness has gotten a little better. But it's by no means gone. Hopefully soon though as I'm 10 weeks along now!
Aside from that, the only exciting event was school enrollment! Our kids start back to school on Aug 13, except JoJo who starts preschool on Aug 20. Emmy and Jo are thrilled while Sterling is not so much. I think he likes the freedom of summer. JoJo is really excited to get to ride the school bus! Cori is jealous and keeps telling us "I turn ride 'cool bus!" Of course with Cori, it always his turn for everything. For me, school can't start soon enough. I'm excited to have only 1 kid home in the mornings 4 days a week. Well, until Feb or Mar I guess. It'll be fun while it lasts I guess!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

My two Roberts

As perhaps all of you know I have been blessed to have two Roberts in my life both of which are essentially the subject of this post as they have been on my mind a lot recently. You see, we had a sonogram last week and saw the little baby and the heartbeat which is good. The heart rate was about 140 which is excellent. Given those indications the likelihood of miscarriage is decreased, but I'm still nervous and worry about how this will all turn out. This is at least partially due to us approaching the 2 year anniversary of little Robert Allen's birth. 2 years ago yesterday (July 14) we found out that he wouldn't make it and tomorrow is his birthday. Those days were in many ways the beginning of a long and harrowing journey for us and perhaps more especially me. We have coped with the loss of a son and 2 subsequent miscarriage with all the accompanying mental and physical challenges. I still miss Robert Allen so much and wish he were with us. I wish I could say that after 2 years it doesn't hurt, but that's not the case. I don't dwell on it as much, but the pain can still be pretty raw at times but those times are not very often thankfully. Rob, though, has been just incredible this pregnancy (except for the time a couple weeks ago when he ate the last of my oreo cookies!). His burden must be pretty heavy with taking care of me, the kids and the house on top of his normal job, but he never complains. His only concern is that I get the rest that I need and that we do everything we can to ensure the arrival of a live and healthy baby. He is patient with my constant worrying (even though he doesn't quite understand why I worry about stuff that I have little or no control over, like the future). I am the luckiest woman in the world to have such a caring and supportive husband. It amazes me that after nearly 10 years of marriage my love for him only grows. I would think that at some point he or I would get tired of eachother, but not yet I guess. So to my two Roberts, I love you both.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

So Sorry Larry and Megan

We were saddened to learn last week that Larry and Megan had miscarried. We were so sorry to hear that and hope that they will be comforted. I was so excited to share this pregnancy with Megan, but I hope that she will recover quickly and soon experience the joy of motherhood.

Robert Allen

miscarriage